Lyrics
The Death We Seek
With every gust of wind, we're blown further back
Forgetting more and more of our past
We sought to paint the world with our vision
Bitter times of our punishment now far and wide ignored
Is young demise not what you wished for?
The sky, it swells and sings
Begging for death at the hands of our misery
Blind pride was our disease
The world will feel the sting
The sky, it swells and sings
Begging for death at the hands of our misery
Blind pride was our disease
Do you accept your fate?
If I fall into the sky, who would I begin to blame?
Reaching further from the light, we become what we have made
Serenity always running from me
Can you feel it? Dark clouds fill the sky
As the sun begins to fade
We're swallowed in
A violent catastrophe begins
We are facing the end
We have found the death we seek
Torn apart at the dawn of suffering
Broken homes, decaying streets
Torn apart at the dawn of suffering
Chasms open beyond the scale of our perception
Disassociated with reality
The sky, it swells and sings
Begging for death at the hands of our misery
Blind pride was our disease
Do you accept your fate?
If I fall into the sky, who would I begin to blame?
Reaching further from the light, we become what we have made
Serenity always running from me
Can you feel it? Dark clouds fill the sky
To know I am at fault
I bite my tongue and hang my head in shame
But I know from one look in your eyes
All along you've deceived me
Why would I ever want this?
Digging through the depths and cutting through the cracks
All I wanted was to shape the Earth for you
And all you wanted was the knife digging through my back
Why would I ever want this?
Digging through the depths and cutting through the cracks
All I wanted was to shape the Earth for you
And all you wanted was the knife digging through my back
Vengeance
Force this revolution
Dark marks behind our masks
Senseless execution
No mistakes and no forgiveness
Forced to be petrified and aimless
Dissolution's revolution
We've succumbed to a violent shaking
We've become our breaking
I never wanted to be a victim
I thought I could rise above
No one prepares you for the answers
They make you, but tear you apart
If there's no way out, can we still break through?
Recover from confinement?
Could we still be numb to the only truth
That lies beyond us?
Will we get stabbed in the back for what we chose
When we were powerless?
Buried in the sand, a shallow monument
To our existence
You were the home that I could love
I stood silent before your grace
No longer vying for connection
We've become a tragedy
'Cause every time we're close to God
You pray for madness
And now there's nothing I can say
To repel the burden, blegh
Let the venom out, end the suffering
Is it ever enough? No, it's never enough
Executioner, judge and jury
Dying to find the hearts that bleed, wasting our forgiveness
Hanging down over us
Our confinement coming in waves
Wolves at the throne, taking what we've denied them
Judgment will be known
If there's no way out, can we still break through?
Recover from confinement?
Could we still be numb to the only truth
That lies beyond us?
Will we get stabbed in the back for what we chose
When we were powerless?
Buried in the sand, a shallow monument
To our existence
You were the home that I could love
I stood silent before your grace
No longer vying for connection
We've become a tragedy
'Cause every time we're close to God
You pray for madness
And now there's nothing I can say
To repel the burden, blegh
Let the venom out, end the suffering
Is it ever enough? No, it's never enough
Executioner, judge and jury
Dying to find the hearts that bleed, no mistakes and no forgiveness
Never There
I thought of reaching out, we could take this slow
Hesitation turned to habit, never made the call.
No branch to break my fall.
I’d have so much to tell you, but I:
Drink ’till I can’t blink
And I fill my brain with holes
My voice is worse for wear
Because I lost my self control
I’ve lost my hope
Now I don’t want to say I’m scared
Cause I don’t want you to think
That this life I slave away for
Is what brings an end to me
But now I’m walking through my life with a clenched up fist
Holding back the tears and feelings that I never spent
I try to find a purpose or a path to set
But I’ve only found the void and so I:
Drink ’till I can’t blink
And I fill my brain with holes
Because the place that I feel safest
It was never there
Never there at all.
A Flag to Wave
I find myself lost again
In a world that doesn’t know my name.
This life I’ve worked for brings no substance to me.
Why do I always feel like I’m going insane?
Determined to find my place,
I seek the remnants of my fate
Forever loathing
Burdened by defeat
Your will is weak
You see yourself
Walk out on the dream
To live a life of peace.
But do you get the life you want
If you never feel free?
I long for something
That I can represent
A flag to wave
To find my foundation
I long for something
to carry to the end
A flag to wave
A flag to wave
Stepping out of form
And into emptiness living a life devoid of passion
I’m here to show the world my face
Taking what you’ve abandoned
They will never know your name
Always in the dark
But still you hide your face
I just hope you’re listening
As you walk out on the dream.
Nothing to lose, but nothing left to gain
I hope you get the things you want
While you wish that you were me.
I long for something
That I can represent
A flag to wave
To find my foundation
I long for something
To carry to the end
A flag to wave
I’m dying to know
What it’s like to be unafraid to drown
I’m dying to know
What it’s like to live a life without the fear of being shut down.
(Abandoning your post believing every lie
The flag you set down I’ll defend with my life)
Sway as the puppets sway.
Nothing left to lose; Nothing left to gain.
So trade a number for your name and drown in misery.
Poverty of Self
The broken suffer
Brought to their knees.
The guilty prosper
consumed by greed.
A vicious cycle
Stuck on repeat;
The innocent stripped of humanity.
You build your walls to keep us in;
Imprisoned in our apathy.
You live a life of selfishness
While we carry the dead weight.
Corruption
Endless division fueled by fear.
Destruction
The end is drawing near.
The broken suffer
Brought to their knees.
The guilty prosper
consumed by greed.
A vicious cycle
Stuck on repeat.
The innocent stripped of humanity.
The classes separate
Watching as the guillotine swings
Crippled with no recourse,
They begin to take the lead.
Ushering an age of dynasties
We are never free.
This is hell.
This is hell.
Poverty of Self.
You build your walls to keep us in;
Imprisoned in our apathy
You live a life of selfishness
While we carry the dead weight.
Corruption
Endless division fueled by fear.
Destruction
The end is drawing near.
Poverty of Self.
Powered by a blood-red greed, you lurk,
Searching for a means to spread your meaningless worth.
Monsters
We’re stuck in the same old standstill again,
Sick of waiting for you to feel it.
Always waiting for the next breakdown to begin
Scared of getting too complicated.
What a shame,
Hiding in your shell again.
Bitter, fucked out of better days
And missed opportunities.
I don’t wanna hear that the times are changing,
I’m the same as I’ve always been.
Why can’t you see;
Are you even listening to me?
I am not the one to blame for the monsters we’ve become.
Get in or get out.
I don’t care, but don’t waste my time.
Stand by my side or you can move on with your life.
Burnt Out
Enslaved I’m left carry a weight that has me
Worn Down
In doubt I’m left to drown with no oxygen.
Burnt Out
Drain me until there’s nothing left to bleed.
Burdened by the chains and too exhausted to run away
I gave you everything.
You spit it back in my face,
It never meant anything.
Left me to swallow the pain,
So much for the dream.
What a shame
Hiding in your shell again
Bitter, fucked out of better days
Missed opportunities
I don’t wanna hear that the times are changing,
I’m the same as I’ve always been.
Why can’t you see;
Are you even listening to me?
I am not the blame for the monsters we’ve become.
Get in or get out.
I don’t care, but don’t waste my time.
Stand by my side or you can move on with your life.
You took what you could just to throw me away.
I gave you everything.
So much for the dream
I gave you everything.
Kill the Ache
How much more do you think it takes?
They’re only here to sell you lies.
It’s no surprise.
‘Cause every day I’ve been waiting for some kind of break
Searching for permanence;
A place that I can go
To make me whole
But the shadows keep whispering to me
But the shadows keep whispering to me
I’m always waiting for the tide to crash through me
I tremble with every wave;
Make me whole again.
If let go
Could I still trust you to
Be better on your own?
(If I let you stay, you will ruin everything)
You’re making me hate a world
So good to me.
(If I let you stay you will ruin everything)
When even good times are bittersweet
And though at times it seems like a nightmare on repeat
All you have to do is breathe
And know that:
This is our home now
You and I will never be alone
When you fall down
Take my hand don’t let me go
This is our home now
You and I will never be alone
When you fall down
I am yours to hold I’m always waiting for the tide to crash through me
I tremble with every wave;
Make me whole again.
If let go
Could I still trust you to
Be better on your own?
(If I let you stay, you will ruin everything)
You’re making me hate a world
So good to me.
(If I let you stay you will ruin everything)
The loneliest dreams
appear in open air
with the sun in my face.
The loneliest dreams I have
Appear when I’m awake.
With a smile on my face,
I live to kill the ache.
Title
Wide awake in clothes I haven’t changed
For days and days as the sun creeps through the window on my face.
Just let it go.
You say I’m like a ghost; my skin is white as paper as I haunt the halls of my home.
I scream like it would stop the ache
Your colors start to show.
I know what I have to do, but it kills me.
Rewriting all the songs
I’d change your name but I know you’ll still take everything to heart.
Just let it go.
I wonder if we’ll die with hope
Or if we’ll be counting the sins we carry deeply as we go.
I just wanted you to have a better life.
Not always shying away from your thoughts on the inside.
I could set you free.
I put you on a shelf
Knowing that I’d be
Too far to reach you from down in hell.
The sun slumps back as I burn your dreams to the best of my ability so just let me leave.
I scream like it would stop the ache.
Your colors start to show.
I know what I have to do, but it kills me
Sleep; if anything, I’ll dream.
It’s only then I’ll have you
I know what I have to do, but it kills me.
Origin
We stand upon a travesty.
At the mouth of the gods
Holding our hands out for affirmation.
Peering over the edge
With our back to the wind
We’re screaming out for release
Into the emptiness.
Swept away beneath the undertow.
Laid to waste by our mistakes.
Conspiring, we blur the line between dependance and blind addiction.
Permeating everyday monotony;
Left to bear a crutch of complacency.
I don’t fuck with fate
Everything is crashing around me
But I don’t feel pain
I’ve given up
Now we have finally reached the reckoning
So now I wait for the day
That we give up our place.
Only the void remains,
Welcome to eternity.
All hope swept out of my hands
There’s nothing you can take from me
No future waits
An origin erased
Bottled up and useless
Broken and insatiable
Cover up our weakness
Existence unsustainable
Staring down devastation
I will welcome the end
If only for the chance to feel again
I curse this Earth
For my soul is tired
Burning Brighter
Burning Brighter
Burning Brighter
On the fire
Now we have finally reached the reckoning
So now I wait for the day
That we give up our place.
Only the void remains,
Welcome to eternity.
All hope swept out of my hands
There’s nothing you can take from me
No future waits
An origin erased
We’re dying in the storm
While our world lays burning
Beneath the embers we choke
We’re nothing but a memory
A bed of atrophy
A resting place
And though the rain grows heavy;
Our tears will never dull the flames.
Split
Well I’ve found in my search
For clarity
That nothing I’ve lost
Belongs to me
I’ll never take the fall
Or crawl on my knees
For this dread I won’t let
Consume my dreams
Will we
Ever find the art in the atrophy?
Shame painted on the walls,
Etched in the stone cold face of me dying alone.
There is nothing worth the wait
For peace, I’m always counting
Every second I don’t break
Do you even care?
I’m split in my head
I’m torn between the things I know
And the ways I cope
I’m sinking again
with the thought you need to grow
But you know you won’t
In & out, playing tricks on my shadow self.
You said that I can’t be a quitter
Spilling lies under the guise of getting better
Yeah, I’m
“getting better,”
Never better balanced.
I’m starting to crack images
Nailed to cross & eulogies
For the fallen hope that withers every second I believe;
Come to find that some things are exactly as they seem.
I’m split in my head
I’m torn between the things I know
And the ways I cope
I’m sinking again
with the thought you need to grow
But you know you won’t
It’s hard to see compassion through the red.
Bitter Hate has taken center stage again.
But I’m not done fighting with the world I’m in.
Are you sick of it yet; all this pity?
Second Skin
Second Skin
I think I finally feel it setting in
Save me this living hell.
This heart; an empty shell
This mind a shallow prison
A menace to my health
In solitude I dwell
Why do we insist
That all hope is fleeting?
How do we reset
When there’s nothing left?
A false idol; I’ve become the hand that feeds.
Making a habit of feigning misery.
I have lived so many lives that I cannot fucking tell which one is mine anymore
Severing the ties
Lost as I disintegrate.
Fade
Into the deepest depths, to the darkest black.
Until there’s nothing left.
Second Skin
I think I finally feel it setting in
Save me from this living hell.
The mask on my face
Has finally taken over.
Forever stuck this way
Now that I can’t give it up
I am torn apart
Burning through my veins
Born in agony
I am torn apart
Beneath the surface
Dying within
Carve me out
The faces blend together
One in the same with no identity
Occupying an empty space
Sentenced to purgatory
Stuck in obscurity
Stuck in obscurity
Beneath the surface
Dying within
Fade
Into the deepest depths, to the darkest black. Until there’s nothing left.
There’s nothing fucking left.
How I Fall Apart
All alone inside my head (x2)
To escape the thought of loneliness is to resist
There’s no point to refuse this
Crawling toward something serious
I’m not trying to push you, I’m just too distant
Is this who you are? ‘Cause it’s not who I am
You can’t make me change; I’m just a shell with no substance
Now I know that I’m all alone
And nobody will come to save me
This is how I fall apart
All alone with these nightmares in my head
In time the walls surround me
Decrepit fixtures on the shelf all fade from my memory
Trembling behind the mask
Devoid of anything resembling humanity
Always under pressure i dissolve
Void in my vacancy
Buried underneath it all
In silence I sink
Now I know that I’m all alone
And nobody will come to save me
This is how I fall apart
All alone with these nightmares in my head
All alone inside my head (x2)
I can’t give myself to you further
For everything’s so meaningless to me
I’ll rip out your heart
‘Cause that’s all I’m good for
I can’t be your shepherd if I’m lost
Now I know that I’m all alone
And nobody will come to save me
This is how I fall apart
All alone with these nightmares in my head
Better Days
Do you ever want to waste away
Recounting better times?
I’m with you;
Is this all we have left to live with?
I only wanna get by.
So with that, I don’t mind getting by;
Reliving moments lived ’till my last breath.
Do you get it?
Suffocating, can’t breathe but you’ve got a fucking mouth to feed.
Never made the effort to change or go out of our way.
You follow
Your sorrows.
For better days we’ve waited for how long,
How long?
You follow your sorrows.
We spiral downward endlessly
But is the bottom where we’re meant to be?
Is anybody listening?
Can anybody tell me why I can’t get up?
Why can’t I get up?
Down on my knees as the world comes falling down.
my fear: chained to the ground for my will is weak
And my state is bleak.
But I’m bound to break free
Pride running through my veins
My chains lay flat around me
My chains lay flat around me
How long do we endure the pain?
How long
‘Till we accept
You follow
Your sorrows?
For better days we’ve waited for how long,
How long?
You follow
your sorrows.
We spiral downward endlessly
But is the bottom where we’re meant to be?
This isn’t where we’re meant to be.
We spiral endlessly.